jessiBOO's apology

MMM where to start? Yesterday has been a CRAZY CRAZY DAY ! MHMM !
Well actually I first wanna start with apologizes...

Krismae Garcia - I'm SO SO SO sorry for everything. I know you did all you can to help, but what I did. You seriously didn't deserve that. Even tho we kinda worked it out when I texted you & stuff earlyer, I'll make it up to you & stop leaving you & stop spacing out in my pretend world. Because I know that I took you for granted for awhile. You've always been there for me in the end, now its my turn to return the favor. I know your not always gonna choose my side or anything, but you watchin over me & the decisions I make helps out alot. Thank you for everything, I'll be constantly UPDATEING YOU LIKE CRAZY. Bcus I don't want to leave you behind anymore. I LOVE you like SUPER CRAZY! ALL HOMO! I LOVE YOU BEST FRIEND <3

DBDT - I'm sorry for everything that went down. From me cussin, yelling, & then to pushing you and stuff... I'm sorry. I know I promised you that I'd be your friend still, but its just too much right now since everything is so fresh. It ALL still hurts & I know what I'm doing doesnt help you out. But just please try & let me be the way I am. I know to you it seems like I've changed, but I'll go back to being my regular self again once this all calms down. I am sorry for what I did to you & EVERYTHING SERIOUSLY. I care about you alot! I know it does'nt show at the moment, but I just need time away from this all & then when I'm good I'll take what you need to say to me. I'm the one that needs to grow up from my insecurities & I'm sorry I blamed you for it. I didn't mean to... I guess I was just doubting myself about alot... & yea... Idk I guess I ended up loosing myself in a pretend dream land. I'll come back and snap out of it soon. Just please try & not do anything. I don't want anymore repeats of yesterday... I really don't... I'll talk to you more soon tho alrights, just not at the moment... I still love you... Just not in love with you...

AYEE $et ! - Sorry I haven't been updating you guys. I've been like a bottle lately, & this is like my breakin point so I'm ready to let it all out. Let's plan another AYEE $et DAY soon! ASAP ! Because I know all you girls been wondering what's been happening. Well I'm ready to talk it ALL OUT, but don't worry I won't just tell my story this time. I'll let you know both sides. I love you girls dearly <3

FBz - I'm pretty sure you guys lost respect for me... I understand... I know some of you made it pretty loud & clear... I'm really sorry. I know thats not enough, but idk what else to do. I can't force you to try & understand. It just really how you guys see it, & from the looks from yesterday. It seemed like you guys seen enough... So I just wanted to say I'm sorry... I know most of you guys might not accept my apology... But its better then nothing... I didn't mean for any of this to happen at all. I know I did get a lil caught up, but thats MY FAULT! Don't blame others for what I did... Bcus I was the one who let it happen... I know... I know... Stupid chocies, stupid me... I'm still learning... I'm still young, but please no more outbreaks like what happened yesterday... All I'm asking for... Please

K - Sorry for putting you in the middle of all of this. Its my fault, like seriously. I didn't mean to put you indanger... I know I got a bit caught up with you... & we talked about it. Thanks for understanding. And thanks for being a great friend. I needa calm myself down... You already know...

Everyone - SORRY for putting you guys in the middle of that... Idk what else to say, but please don't take anything personally...

So much crazy things happened last night. Words left unspoken led into confusion & anger. Wild actions turned into anger & hate. So many unknown reasons why. People being left behind turned into disappointment. So much to think over. So much to say. What actions are there for a person to do or say?
"Sometimes, people can go missing right before our very eye. Sometimes, people discover you, even though they've been looking at you the entire time. Sometimes, we loose sight of ourselves when we're not paying enough attention."
All there is to do at the moment is try & hope for things to cool down, but always prepare yourself for the worst.