Spilling the Beans.

AYEE guys! Wow reading all your blogs helps out alot with updates and ish so thats good. We're gettin somewhere in some sense. I always miss the girls that don't attend our school but i wish they did in a way, but as for the girls that do attend BHS damn im sorry guys....i fee like im effing it up, but honestly its how i've been feeling for awhile now...it never went away i just tried to push it to the back of my thoughts thinking everything was gonna be fine. I mean it sounds like for all of you guys cept a couple that things are going great and how Ayee Set is SOOO Much stronger i mean im glad if you guys feel that way but honestly i really dont. Hate to say it but its how i've been feeling.
I cant deny my emotions and ya'll know how emotional i am, i'm always the first to cry and first to get angry and jump to conclusions. I feel pretty much how hazel does in a way cept i know the people that she avoids and i'm sorry hazel that you feel that way. When i hang out with you guys i feel so outta it, i dont understand the jokes or funny sayings, i just dont get what goes on whenever i hang out with you guys, like you guys have to sit there and explain it to me. It sucks to feel alone and out of it but damn you guys gotta see that i havent been ignoring you guys its just that when im there its either silent or i just dont get it and its awkward so why would i wanna be surrounded by an awkwardness i mean i love you guys when we hang out 1 on 1 but when we're a group it sorta changes. We try not to leave people out and i know its hard and i should be glad that im included right? i guess, but in a sense why does it matter? Like idk. it hurts. i let out my emotions all the time whenever i think about it. I'm sorry i had to say it on the computer instead of real life but its hard to let it all out in the short time period i see you guys.


Okayy....but enough with that for now. It breaks my heart all the time, knowing that i get to hear info about you guys or whats going on from other people that arent in ayee set or that are but shouldnt be saying that cuz no one knows. DAMN....='[

Yeaah ive been busy with practice and what not and so i sorry about that guys i really wanna be there to hang out with you guys everyday and what not but i cant i made a commitment and i plan on keeping that. Honestly, it really really disappointed me when Jessica Eeka and Chanelle quit volleyball and kinda sorta Steph in a way, i was like speechless....but i mean you guys had your reasons and sorry for bringing up a old random thing but its always been bugging me, and how you guys are always like "MANN I MISS VOLLEYBALL! AND HOW YOU GUYS MISS CERTAIN PLAYERS" >.<>

Schools alright and alotta things have changed i really cant decide right now if its for the better or worse. We'll just have to see as time goes on. Coach Lindsey is our new JV coach and she's been working us hard and pushing us. So it gets a bit frustrating especially with reggie around and crap, sometimes i wanna pull out his lil raccoon hat that he calls his hair.

Well the soccer coach has been trying to get to go to his practices and stuff and sending people to try and persuade me into joining the team but idk yet, cuz i know that'll mean i'll be busier when im off season which is usually my only free time pretty much. i'm still unsure and will prolly let you guys know my decision soon.

Yeaaah i havent been able to go to my church in carson lately for like the last 2 months so its really be hard with out my weekly dosage of god but i mean i get by i still pray and stuff, he's definitely someone i can come to with my problems. so sallgood. i feel its a test of my commitment and endurance so hopefully i can keep up.

I have a tournment Saturday at Pioneer High school at like 7 til like 1. So yeaah i just thought to let you guys know. Hopefully i can still make it to Jazaleia's thing! =/ and mine and hazel's first league game is a home game versus Artesia on Wed. Oct. 1st.

Weeelll, i can see you guys have many plans coming up and its nice to know........i guess.
I would love to go to OctoberFest seeing as how i've never gone idk about ShipWreck being on the Queen Mary but we'll see.

Sometimes i feel like my life is one BIG LONG never ending Korean Drama.=/ like the ones all the NON-Koreans watch. -.-

I spend most of my time at school or with my volleyball girls or DBM2G but its just cuz i have em for classes like hazo.

i think ima wrap it up cuz im tired and i still gotta read Bless Me Ultima for Mrs. Whitney's Class. =/


OH BTW. I'm glad eeka's feeling better and Hazel hope you had a great birthday! and mae yu really needa plan something! :] i'm excited for hazel's kickback!




Goodnight babydears! <3>
Forever here i am for you :] even if we have problems.
♥gloriachang


p.s. i miss ayee $et, and if ya'll got something to say then tell me, cuz i know we be havin side convos bout stuff like that honestly. i know. i dont go on that much either cuz i usually do hw and KO but tonight i finished kinda early so i got on and had a buncha blogs to read so i was up a lil longer.