AYEE! LOVE

Well, well, i haven't been postin daily blogs either. And i can see everyone been updated. I just wanted to start off with what happened. I know that thing just passed but i wasn't there to tell you guys how i felt, how you guys were so disappointed in us. Honestly, i felt bad for not telling you guys what we had planned that day during minimum day and i know it was our fault for not tellin you guys the truth. But if you think about it even if we told you guys what we had plan you guys would be always saying something and will still be disappointed so it didn't make a difference but then again, our friendship is strong and i'm sorry for not tellin the truth. Now, we know that we need to tell you guys and you guys need to understand too. Its not like i realized it now, you know... Its not something we always do, it comes in ones in a while and we took it. "BABY" it does sound harsh and i know you don't mean it to be harsh and i gotta admit everything you said is true, i'm not saying anything more. But i just feel like every LITTLE mistake we do leads to a big thing. We're always disappointing you, and i don't know if you guys feel it, but i feel like there is a main head out of this ayee! set friendship we have. Its a friendship, every little person here needs to be treated equally not one person not two, but everyone. I've kept my feelings from it cos i know i wanted it to work out what we have cos you guys been there for me throughout. Right now, i just feel like saying something... . Its not only me that feels it, "BOO" feels it too, but that doesn't mean we're trying to be against you guys and it doesn't mean just because we're bestfriends doesn't mean we're isolating ourselves with you guys. If you guys put yourself in our situation, i know for a fact that you guys will not act any different. I admit and i remember how we always use to say guys won't break us apart but its not breakin us apart tho, just different life choices and it disappoints you guys and i honestly am not happy about it either. It sucks feeling the disappointment in one another. I'm not the type of person that's mean and harsh, you guys all know that. I'm trying to balance everything i have with you guys, and the guy i'm talking to, to make everyone happy. Its not like i always leave you guys, i don't mean it to be that way. But i guess it just happens, you know. That's why i always stay quiet and not say something. It hurts knowing from you guys that we disappoint you with mistakes we've done. I mean, come on no one's perfect in this world.. We all make mistakes. And yet, we learn from it, i don't blame you guys for acting and getting mad at this kind of stuff. You can say, you guys know what to expect from us, but it sounds a little harsh honestly, i am a sensitive person, i gotta admit. But hey, its how you guys feel towards us and how i feel about it. I guess i'll try my best to make this not happen again anymore, i'm not gona promise you guys. But i'm always feeling like i make alot of mistakes from this. Words does hurt tho but i understand. I love you guys dearly, just don't forget that. 

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